today's post is for diff. people. if you think you are included, den its you. dun ask me who it is okay?! =.=
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----------- you said tt she badmouthed me to hazel, and she said me change attitude. but i dunno whether to believe you anot. but you as a christian, you shouldn't like break ur promise so easily luhh. jus because you like tt person more, you tell her all those secrets tt ur fren tells you? if you do this, and ur fren finds out, do you think she will ever still believe you and trust in you again? the impt thing in friendship is TRUST. if you cannot even let people trust you, how then can people trust you? if you waver jus because of such trival things, like FREN A asks you to tell her, and you liked FREN A more THAN FREN B, YOU'RE SUCH A FAILURE. I KNOW YOU WILL BE VERY SURPRISED OR MAYBE SAD tt im saying this about you. but this is what alot of ur so called good frens think abt you ALSO. they didnt tell you, i dunno whether is it they dun dare or what. you can go ask them. this is the fact. i really thank you for being there for me, and trying to cheer me up. but if you really didnt do this as above i stated, im sooo sorry tt i accused you. ): but i dunno the fact. we can still be friends if you want to.-------------if you really did badmouthed me, and said all these things tt are untrue of me, den i dunno what to say to you okay. i dunno whether i really matter to you anot. and you once even said tt i didnt bother to care abt this friendship with you. do you really think i dun bother abt this friendship with you? there are many things tt are concerned abt you, tt i didnt say out cos i noe tt you will be angry. you cannot just judge things by its cover you know, how you noe i didnt care abt this friendship? i really care soo much abt this friendship okay. if you dun think so, den too bad. what makes you think i dun cherish this friendship? its really very sad to see tt you saying me dun care abt this relationship okay. but right now, i jus wanna noe the fact of whether ^ she is saying the truth, or are YOU saying the truth . i dunno who to believe right now. im sorry for all the harsh words tt are written in this post. i mean no offence, i just wanna clarify things out. if this had made you more angry, den close it. thanks you,school so not rocked today. yepp.things were screwed up as you see above, and i cried in sch. i actually cried okay. in front of tess they all somemore. but tess was really kind to comfort me. she kept calling me to cool down, and dun cry. cos she was the one tt asked me what happened, and she was surprised tt i was involved in the " dun friend" thing. yes. and this was the first time i cried in sch okay. F-I-R-S-T !and it was again ___ . this year, i only cried for the quarrels we have had, it is really very saddening tt things became like tt, and im called to be the one making it worse. 3d1 doesnt have anybody tt i can trust with ( ONLY includes people i know quite well. ) now, the people i can trust now is only gz clique, mainly ru yuan and valerie, and wai yee, and pj. and rachel. they are the real ones tt can keep secret and comfort you. esp when they are the same religion as you. im not saying tt non-christians cannot comfort, but im jus meaning tt they share something common with you, and somehow understand you more, cos we have the SAME GOD. the great and awesome God, who created everything and anything in earth and in the whole universe. im soo surprised tt i cant control my tears from rolling down. i have controlled for soo long all these days, during the quarrels. but i jus let it down today. i broke my own record of crying in sch first time.
Did i really make things worse, and was i really LAME enough by posting some of my feelings in MY blog? Tell me.
ohh god. i nid ur strength and guidance to guide me through this obstacle, please guide me through in all my trials in life, and please let me put all my trust in you, and have faith tt you WILL guide me through, and what is happening now is all for my own good. :-)
