today is the worst day of my life. i lost my wallet at bugis. how? my parents didnt scold me, but i was crying till i dunno like what. i really dun wanna lose my parents money okay. its okay if its my money. but its my dad's one. how? im lost now. i really dunno what to do. my IC, ez-link card, and 30-40 bucks are inside. including my sister's money. she asked me to buy slipppers for her and she gave me 15 bucks, and i lost it all. i just dun understand why am i so dumb. FUCK MYSELF OKAY. im sorry, but readers have to be prepared, cos its gonna be a vulgar post. we went to mos burger, den we ordered and i put my fucking wallet at the chair, and at tt time, there was seriously 1 voice telling me to keep my wallet into my damn bag. really. and its not only once, but many times, and i chose to ignore what God is telling me. i just had to move my stupid fat hand, and put my wallet into my bag. it was tt easy. but i didnt do it. and i left my wallet dere. i jus took my ic you know, how am i going to live now. i lost the money, and my IC and ezlink card. how. how. how. im very scared now. i lost my everything in just one afternoon. and i really wanted to control my tears okay. i just dont like to cry in front of everybody. when i was calling my mum and tell her tt i lost it, i actually cried, i tried to control alr. but my tears jus rolled down. cos i really regretted not putting my wallet into my bag. somemore there was really a voice telling me to put. why didnt i listen to it?! cos i listened to satan. FUCK YOU! satan, you tell me la. what am i going to do now. you jus go be lanpa, and eat shit. i guess tt suits you, right. mother.

THIEF: im telling you this now. can you please please please please please return me my wallet? i promise i wont call the police? i beg you. im so miserable now. i know its alot of money, but can you not steal my IC and ez-link? i really need both of tt. and my money. you jus go find a job and earn money lah! can you jus return my fucking wallet back to me? i beg you, im really begging you. i really nid my parents' and sister's money back. i dont wanna owe them anything. please. i beg you. can you return it to me? i dont owe you anything. why must you steal my wallet. jus go find a job, please. its not fun to steal people's things okay. you are jus following to what satan is saying. which is seriously bad. okay. i dunno what to say to you, but these: fuck you, jibai, i wanna cut ur kuku bird, i hope you can die soon, i wanna cut off ur damn nipple also, bastard, and you're son of a bitch.

and i guess i wont be eating dinner. i have no more money to pay back my parents and sister. and i still owe valerie $2.70. 18th june, i will rmb this date. its the worst day of my life. i haven never lost my wallet before. and i dont understand why God is putting me under this test. i cant pass this test, lord. i dont wanna go on anymore, can you please save me, im sorry for not listening to you. but please help me. i really dont know what to do now. i jus feel like... nvm. im hungry now. but i dont wanna eat. i need to punish myself for being so stupid as to lose my wallet. i hate myself. you can stop thinking of eating for 1 whole day tmr okay. shut up.