I really can't stand it today. Gz at first was really okay. Normal. My mood was still quite okay. Cos received present from Valerie, and pj made cookies for thurs outing, which smells very very NICE. (: Until, lao shi showed us the groupings for the Zhengs. Yes, im in Zheng III. It's acceptable lah. There's a reason for me in Zheng III. But i didnt want to be there. I can't play ANYTHING. Really, and seriously. Except the starting note of all the easy ones?! Which adds up to less than 10 notes, i think. Maybe less than 20 lah. Im not exaggerating. Really. Im such a failure, loser. )': I can't even play such a thing. It's like really very very hard lah. Maybe they can't see that im really already trying my VERY best to understand it, and concentrate in such a hot weather. But while im struggling here, some other people in Zheng I and II are like so happy playing there, keep laughing and all. Yes, it's not their fault that they're having fun in gz. But it's really quite irritating for me lah. Im really having ALOT of difficulties on Zheng III. I know it's impossible to change to any other Zhengs lah, but Zheng III seriously have no melody. As in, the tune doesn't make me know how to play. It's like tuneless and melody-less. Hate it.