Was having the afternoon math session and teacher gave us the ws for proportion. I knew i was weak for that topic, but still tried. Okay, what hit me was, my mock exam paper 2 only got 51. At first Ms liang put 51/80 so i was like okay. At least i passed, even though those people's math are lousier than me got much better results. But i just knew that it was supposed to be upon 100. In other words, I just passed. It's barely just a PASS. What the hell. All these while i was working so hard for my math, staying back everyday till 6 and coming back to school from mon to wed, and this is what i get from my results. I listen in class, I did every homework that was given. What, what the freaking hell is wrong. It feels as if all my damn efforts have gone to waste. What is this man. I was literally fighting back my tears during that math lesson. Not only because of my super lousy results, but also because I can't do the proportion ws. Like out of 6 questions, I only know how to do 2. I was really wondering what I have been doing these while. As if staying back everyday for math everyday and spending so much time revising for math was not enough. I feel really useless. Seriously. Idk how to express how I really feel now. It's like every hope and dream is beginning to collapse. I no longer know how to set a target for myself. My current results is not getting me anywhere. At all. Wtf.